The Essex boy became a household name as one of the original cast members of the hit ITV2 series, but he paid the price of fame when rumours of cheating finished his four year relationship with his "first love".With Lydia no longer appearing in the series, Arg admitted to This Morning's Phillip and Holly that he has had no contact with her for over a year.But he hopes his autobiography Living It Arg will offer an explanation for his actions.He said: "I was still with Lydia at the time when the allegations were being made and obviously I thought at the time that if I was to admit to it that Lydia would finish with me."I did lose her in the end because it all just became too much."You've got to remember before TOWIE I didn't have any money, I had no attention from girls and as soon as the show started Lydia was the only girl I had ever been with, so when the show started I didn't deal with the fame too well."We haven't had any contact for, probably, the last year and a half."I like to think the book explains everything to Lydia. I think she will have comfort from knowing the reasons why I did it and the fact of how genuinely sorry I am...she's a big part of the book."It's not easy living your private life on TV, but that's the job, that's the decision we all made, so you've just got to go with it."Phillip described Arg as "the Ian Beale of TOWIE" due to the fact he has featured on the show from the very beginning - a title Arg accepted with pride...He said: "I've been there since day one, I've missed one episode and I think there has been about 150 - and I'm still devastated about it!"What could be better, I'm with all my best mates just having fun and I've loved it ever since I started."I think what makes it easier is the fact that we all grew up as kids and friends together. The likes of me, Lydia, Mark (Wright), Sam (Faiers), we've all been close friends since we were 16 onwards."We've had each other's support to keep each other grounded, we've all been through it together."